Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Dont think, just jump!

Here I stand at the deep end of the pool. Unfamiliar ground. My toes dangle and wiggle off the edge. I am not sure what will happen once I jump off the edge. I am not sure where this will find me, once I plunge. I know once I do jump, it is done. Like braving yourself up for some adventure like sky diving or white water rafting. You tell yourself you just have to it. Don't think. Dont rationalize. Dont list fears. Dont list possibilities.Dont think. Do it! Just take a deep breath and GO! You know once you are in midair. Once you sit in that boat. And you push off and the water is pulling you toward your first rapid. There is no changing. There is no turning back. Just take a deep breath, and jump. In things like this even in my spiritual life. I can not let my rational side be the dominate part. I can not let myself think too long on it.

I have already had to trust so much more in my heavenly Father than ever before. This trip has already plunged me far out of my comfort zones than ever before. This trip has made me shake in my boots, fall to my knee's, and take many deep breaths and jump. And now, its almost time, to jump right into the deep end. I have never done anything like this before. I have had to struggle and wrestle with my flesh. I have had to take thoughts captive and make them obedient. God has been so patient and quiet the gentleman through this whole process. Me constantly beakoning for more reassurance. And Him reassuring and confirming in ways my mind could not have thought up!

Come on daughter. No, you don't need a life jacket. I command the waters, and I created all things. I am here to catch you. To dive deep with you. I have called you to these waters. Just close your eyes, take a breath, and jump!

Ready.....

set.................

JUMP!